I have had a lot of people asking how my 3 appointments went on Friday. Two of them were fine but 1 was tough.
We met with the oncologist for the first time. Let’s just say he could have been named Negative Ned….seriously. He presented many “what-ifs” we haven’t even explored. The “c-word” came up at least 30 more times than I would have liked. I realize its his job to present all possibilities to us but I’ll admit, it wasn’t easy to listen to.
I’m not going to go into detail about the appointment. Right now, I’m going to focus on my family and having another beautiful baby but most of all, keep my eyes on truth-Jesus and his promises. If we have to, we will cross that bridge if we ever come to it. But I’m not going to let one doctor’s opinion rule my thoughts and spirit.
I’ve found throughout this journey EVERY doctor has a completely different opinion. I’ve seen 2 Maternal Fetal specialists, 7 doctors, 3 nurse practitioners, and 8 different ultrasound techs throughout my pregnancy. None of them felt the need to present to me the options this oncologists did. I was referred to the oncologist by the maternal fetal specialist on the basis “just-in-case,” and he is the most skilled gyn surgeon in the business should we need him. So my appointment with him on Friday was very unexpected. But because most doctors haven’t felt the need to explore the options he did, I feel comfortable just focusing on those things that I know are TRUE, LOVELY, AND PURE.
The truth is the Lord gave us a great miracle. He saved my little girl’s life and has protected her throughout these past 9 months. Dr.’s can’t figure out miracles. The oncologist even came back into the room after our appointment and said, “Sorry, it took me so long. I went through my book about 2 inches thick and couldn’t figure out how to code you.”
I’m delivering Wednesday at 10:30 now so please be in prayer for several things:
- This “mass” will just come right out. That it isn’t connected to my uterus and has no root system.
- My uterus will contract correctly. I won’t have a need for a hysterectomy.
- The “mass” will be benign when it is tested in the OR. We have a pathologist who will test a frozen sample immediately in the OR.
- Mike and I may have to make some quick life-altering decisions in the OR after Charis is born. Please pray for supernatural wisdom.
- Charis is such a miracle that she has made it through all this!! All the doctors can’t believe it still. Please continue to pray for her safety.
- Luke and Elle will be protected. I really feel like the kids are happy and this hasn’t affected them too much-except strengthened their faith. But please continue to pray for my children. My mother’s heart breaks for them sometimes because I hope this hasn’t affected them.
- Mike-this man is my rock. I will cry if I start explaining how blessed I am to have him, and the actions he does to make me feel safe, strong, and at peace. Pray for strength and peace for him.
- That I will keep my focus on Jesus. Period.
Okay, so that’s more than several things….sorry! I just wanted to give specifics to be in prayer for.
The Lord really speaks to me through worship music and these are 3 songs I’m continually listening to right now. My best friend just sent me this one today, and it’s going on my playlist for the hospital:
Another friend sent me this one that ministered to her while her son was the NICU:
This song as been my anthem since the beginning of this journey:
Next time I update this blog, it will be with a picture of my beautiful girl! 🙂 Thank you for your prayers, friends!!