Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and all that is within me,
bless his holy name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits,
who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
who satisfies you with good
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s Psalm 103
This song has been my anthem for the past 3 weeks. My dad and I sang this scripture song when I was a little girl. I’ve yet to find the version we sang, though. But goodness, I’m singing this song with such great JOY today!!
We had another specialist appointment this morning. I gave all my vitals and everything looked great. We walked into the ultrasound room and waited with anticipation and anxiousness. Then the nurse came in and said, “Well, your Harmony DNA results were just faxed back. EVERYTHING looks perfect! 46 chromosomes! No Trisomny. No Chromosomal disorders. Nothing. Everything is great! Do you want to know what you are having?”
Mike and I decided when we first found out I was pregnant that we would not find out the sex of the baby. We thought it’d be a fun surprise. But after the events of the past few weeks we knew we wanted to know. This baby deserved to be called by their name and not it. We wanted to pray for our baby by name. We wanted to pick out a strong and perfect name for them that had something to do with the miracle they were. Plus I needed to feel that connection to the baby knowing them and naming them no matter what happened. So we shot a glance back at each other and said are we sure we want to know?!? We both emphatically said yes! So she told us. (I’ll share in another post. 🙂 )
Then we had the ultrasound. I couldn’t wait to see the little heartbeat for my peace of mind. The tech immediately went straight to the heartbeat, and we listened to the beautiful sound of our miracle’s heartbeat. One of my favorite sounds I’ve ever heard. EVER!
The tech took a series of pictures. She kept saying, she wasn’t sure what this was because it wasn’t looking like a molar anymore. She had never seen anything like it. She said it even looked like there was NOW healthy placenta tissue in between the mass and the sac where the baby is. Wow! I told her the specialist (practicing for 40 years) she worked for was convinced it was a partial molar pregnancy or molar placenta degeneration two weeks ago. She said, “Well, he is never wrong so I’m going to stop talking.”
After she finished up, we were then called back to the specialists office. He said, “Well guys, I’ve got 2 good things and 1 question.” “All your blood work is now completely normal. Your HCGs, which were elevated, are all normal. Second, Everything on the DNA test is normal. Now, the only question to me is what is the mass?”
He preceded to tell us he didn’t know. He was baffled. This might be his 1 in a million case. He had consulted 20 different doctors around the country and no one quite had an idea since everything was so perfect. I asked if it could be cancerous. He really didn’t think so. It didn’t appear malignant and my HCGs would be super elevated because cancer feeds off hormones. I asked several other questions and he just said, “Honestly, I just don’t know here. All I know is everything looks normal over here. And we have this question over here. But I’m not concerned and I feel good about you continuing. We will monitor you ever month and if we feel like we need to intervene we can but I feel good about this today.”
We said we are fabulous with that! And encouraged. But honestly, we were in such shock that that was all that came out of our mouths. I mean there was no bit of negativity in our conversation. Nothing. I kept waiting for a BUT. But the only BUT I got was “I’m not quite sure what this is. But I’m not concerned anymore or right now.” All our other appointments had been filled with negativity and maybe an ounce of hope. We had hope all over this appointment from the moment we walked in the door till we left.
Mike and I got in the elevator, and looked at each other speechless. We walked to the car and he said, “Do you just realize what happen?” I said, “I think so! We just got the best possible news we could have gotten. God is truly working a miracle!” We got in the car still shocked but praising Him! He was giving us the miracle we had hoped for!!
I sobbed most of the way home thanking the Lord that He is working. He heard the prayers of all His people. We are getting that progressive miracle! What once was a situation of very little hope was now filled with hope!!
Mike and I stopped by a cupcake shop and brought home cupcakes the color of the gender to celebrate with the kids and my mom! As I was paying for them, I started tearing up. I told the cashier, “I had basically been giving no hope for my baby to make it and today God preformed a miracle for us! I can’t believe I’m here buying celebratory cupcakes! I shouldn’t be doing this. I don’t deserve this. But God is giving us this miracle we have been praying for! That people all over the country have been praying for! ”
Mike and I are in total awe. We know this wasn’t a misdiagnosis or fluke! We had 6 medical professionals look at my blood work and US pictures convinced this was a partial molar or molar placenta degeneration. We KNOW that we KNOW God is preforming a miracle! To Him be ALL the glory!
I’ll have a few more prayer requests later….But please just praise Him today! Please know that GOD is moving that mass. That GOD is putting healthy tissue in between our baby and that mass. That GOD is protecting our child! That GOD brought ALL my levels to normal. That GOD favors life. That is real! HE is real! There is no way anyone but Him could have preformed this miracle! Just PRAISE Him! And know just as He favored our family and our baby that he favors you. He delights in you. He loves you. And he wants to give you the miracle you need!
Now I’m off to celebrate with my family….Love to all of you!! Thank SO MUCH for all the prayers!!
For when God made a promise to Abraham, since he had no one greater by whom to swear, he swore by himself,14 saying, “Surely I will bless you and multiply you.” 15 And thus Abraham,[b] having patiently waited, obtained the promise. Hebrews 6:13-15